Vanity

I think that God is trying to teach me a lesson about vanity. First of all, I just had a baby and none of my clothes fit. Of course this is to be expected. I am ok with wearing Jerry's clothes for a few months. However combine wearing Jerry's clothes with the fact that my make-up has gone completely missing makes me think. This could all be a coincidence until you take in the fact that my hair dryer has just completely died.

I am under total attack. My weight, my clothes, my face, and my hair. There is nothing left. It's over.

At least no one has called me an orphan yet.

some pictures

My girls, and looking to a bright future

Here is a picture of me and two of my girls, Tracie and Robyn (there are 8 of us, total). (Too bad my eyes are closed) I just wanted to say, I LOVE MY GIRLS! I love this picture. It makes me happy. They are the best, and I'm so lucky to have such wonderful friends and so instantly. It's the first time I've had friends that are friends with each other since high school. It's awesome.

On another note, I am so glad that 2009 is over! It was a really, really hard year (as I know it was for a lot of people) Jerry didn't loose his job or anything like so many people, but it was just a really hard year. Moving to a new place and having NO friends for the first 9 months of the year, BEING PREGNANT, learned hard money lessons, family dramas, family hardships, sick babies just to name a few, plus some other more personal struggles. I'm not trying to complain, I just want to reflect on what we've overcome this past year. I am SO looking forward to moving on and moving up in 2010!!

"The past does not equal the future, unless you live there"
-Tony Robbins

So I just wanted to put in writing that I'm not going to dwell on the past, but look to the future. And for anyone of you who also had a tough year, Let's all do the same. I am also going to post my resolutions for this year as soon as I take the time to take a minute and write them down.

Happy New Year!

We're home

We were finally able to leave the hospital yesterday. They were able to rule out strep or any infection of the blood which is great news! He still had some type of infection, so we have to continue antibiotics, but luckily we can do that from home. Oliver seems happy and healthy and is doing really well.
Actually since we got home he has been sleeping great!!! He has been going 3 hours between eating instead of the 1 1/2 or 2 that has been the norm since he was born. It's been REALLY nice, especially at night!
I'm know that even scary bad things happen for a reason. While I of course didn't want this to happen, it gave me and Oliver some much needed bonding, alone time. I didn't get that when he was born and now I see how important it is. I hate to admit this, but the truth is, I haven't really felt very connected to Oliver (until now). He didn't have a name until he was two days old, and I've found myself continuing to call him "baby brother" or even "the other one" (ouch!) I was even still wondering if we had chosen the right name for him. I know that sounds horrible, but it's the truth.
I am so grateful for the past 3 days of getting to spend complete uninterpreted time with Oliver and my love for him has deepened infinitely. He is so strong and I know that he is an amazing spirit and is going to teach me so much. And now, I have no trouble just calling him Oliver.

New Years in the Hospital

Tuesday morning Oliver ran a fever of 101, which for a 5 week old is pretty serious. We took him to the pediatrician, and it was decided to take him to the hospital. They needed to run some tests to rule out anything serious. They told us that they needed to keep him for 48 hours. It looked like everything was fine and we thought we would be going home this morning, but last night the culture for strep came back positive. They aren't sure if it's a false positive, so they want to run the test again. So we have to be here for 2 more days.

Oliver seems to be feeling much better though. His fever went down after a day and he seems to be healthy and happy. It looks like whatever infection caused his fever was caught early and we've been treating him with antibiotics. If the test turns out to be positive, we have to stay here and will just continue the antibiotics for a week.

So we sit. We wait.

We wish you all a very happy, healthy, and prosperous New Year!