Wednesday, July 29, 2009

random thoughts, since nothing is going on

The other day, my husband told me that I looked like an orphan. Granted, I was peeling potato's and was all in my grubbies, but then again, I am always in my grubbies these days. Have I really turned into THAT stay at home mom? It's so sad. My mother taught me better than this. My mother wears lipstick to bed and make-up to the gym. It's just so hard to want to spend time getting ready in the morning (precious time I'd rather spend with Jerry, who is only home 3 hours before he leaves for work and doesn't get home until I'm asleep) just to stay at home all day with my son. Literally, Jerry takes our only car to work, I don't leave the house.

Yet, I can't help but know that spending day after day in my grubbies is not helping the way I've been feeling lately. I've been a little down which is understandable because I don't get post-partum depression, I get pregnancy depression.

I know that I shouldn't be to hard on myself, there is no need to spend hours everyday trying to look perfect, that isn't what I mean. Jerry says he doesn't care how I look and I know he means it. I think it's important to look nice for your husband, but this isn't about him. I have always strived to look nice for myself, not for others. I really don't care what others think about the way I look. Looking nice helps me feel good. Anyway, I'm having a hard time finding a good balance between a complete homeless look and beauty queen.


Anna said...

I sympathize. I have been car-less for the past few weeks and I feel more like an inmate than an orphan. Maybe my husband would realize this if I had striped pajamas. I don't even have pregnancy to blame my prison blues on. Sophie and I do a lot of walking and I linger in the checkout lines and ask pointless questions about produce because sometimes you just need to talk to a human who is taller than your waist.

Laura said...

I know what you mean. Ever since I had Lily I have stopped wearing make-up, except on Sundays. Lily wants my undivided attention almost all of the time. So when I do have a second with out her, I try to accomplish what I have to get done and make-up is just on the bottom of the list. When I am not feeling the best, I find that exercise helps me feel tons better. I am not really a go work out type of person, but I do love to take walks. Walking in the Morning before it gets really hot makes me feel better about myself during the day. I hope you can find something that helps you feel better soon.