Feeling Uncool

Today I discovered that someone that I went to Jr. High with is getting pretty famous as a recording artist. Here is a link to his Facebook page that has all his other links, check him out:
Benton Paul

I am really impressed, he sounds amazing and is so talented!

Every time I hear of someone who becomes successful that is my same age, I think "wow, we have been on this earth the same amount of time and look at what they have done with their life!, and what have I done with mine?" Now, don't get me wrong, I know that raising a child is very important and amazing, but what else do I have to show for myself? Are my only contributions to this world going to be through my son? I find myself dreaming all these amazing things for Jonah, but why have I given up dreaming for myself? It's so hard trying to find a balance between our children and ourselves. Sometimes it feels like it has to be one or the other. I guess that's the age old conundrum of parenthood.

I haven't given up on my dreams completely, the problem is that I'm 25 and still don't really know what they are. It would be one thing if I really had something that I was totally passionate about, then at least I could have a goal, an endpoint, in mind. Then the only problem would be mapping out a way to get there, but here is my question to the universe: What if you don't have a goal?

I know that if I were reading this about someone else, I would be tempted to say something like "it isn't about the destination, it's about the journey" True, true, but what I don't like is feeling like I'm pointlessly drifting through life. And it's passing me by.

So, I have a question for those of you who know what you love, what you're passionate about. How did you discover your passion? Do you have any ideas of how to find it, besides "what do you like to do or how do you spend your time"? I'm not sure watching movies is going to get me to where I want to be:)

Today is our 4th anniversary! I wish that I could write a wonderful tribute to my wonderful husband, but I'm not so good with words. So here are a bunch of pictures of us through the years.

Engagement


Dancing at our wedding


Honeymoon in Disneyland!


Hawaii!!


Cross country skiing in up in American Fork Canyon, one of our favorite places.



Jerry runs races at a very slow pace to stick with me:)

Monterey, CA


Going down Provo River.


Jerry and me in Egypt. We love to travel and go on adventures together!


Venice. Ahh Venice.



Jerry strapped on some weights to "feel my pain" one particularly uncomfortable pregnant day. He only lasted for about 20 min., but the gesture was very sweet.


I love you Jerry!!!

Groundhog Day!

First D.J.: Okay, campers, rise and shine, and don't forget your booties 'cause it's cooooold out there today.
Second D.J.: It's coooold out there every day. What is this, Miami Beach?
First D.J.: Not hardly. And you know, you can expect hazardous travel later today with that, you know, that, uh, that blizzard thing.
Second D.J.: [mockingly] That blizzard - thing. That blizzard - thing. Oh, well, here's the report! The National Weather Service is calling for a "big blizzard thing!"
First D.J.: Yessss, they are. But you know, there's another reason why today is especially exciting.
Second D.J.: Especially cold!
First D.J.: Especially cold, okay, but the big question on everybody's lips...
Second D.J.: - On their chapped lips...
First D.J.: - On their chapped lips, right: Do ya think Phil is gonna come out and see his shadow?
Second D.J.: Punxsutawney Phil!
First D.J.: Thats right, woodchuck-chuckers - it's...
[in unison]
First D.J.: GROUNDHOG DAY!
Second D.J.: GROUNDHOG DAY!